Sunday, January 28, 2007

Saturday, January 27, 2007

Next on the agenda...Tessa

Tessa has an upcoming urology appt in Toronto at Sick kids...it's to review the results of her urodynamic tests from November. We are not looking forward to hearing their results because they are going to suggest surgery (again)...which we do not want to do and Tessa is terrified of. You can not even discuss this with her or she'll get upset. Her bladder is not getting as big as it should be by her age so they will suggest this.....
bladder augmentation using intestinal segments ileum, colon, and stomach to increase the size of her bladder. Sounds gross ...plus the side effects are not wonderful....first the surgery and recovery, the problems associated with bladder aug..include: mucous build up in the bladder...which can lead to more frequent urinary tract infections (currently she rarely gets any ...maybe 1 a year if that), metabolic growth problems, tumors (seem to occur about 10 years after), due to lack of bladder sensation the bladder can rupture or over stretch causing major problems...and if that isn't enough cancer is possible too.....I wonder why they are having a hard time convincing us to do this ...let alone Tessa thinking that she'd like to do for self esteem reasons.

I know until we are okay with it she'll never be...these decisions we want her to be old enough to decide and old enough to understand the pros and cons...she's not. they have been pushing for over 4 years for us to do this and 2 other major surgeries at the same time..they figure once they are in there they might as well do it all at once.

I have many friends whose children have done this surgery and they are ok with it..and feel it worked out good for them...We're just not there yet nor is Tessa....

Recently we heard about a newer procedure still in experimental stages...some friends are checking into it in the U.S. for their child...sounds more of a route that I would go if any.
it involves nerve regeneration....if you have had an aug done you are ineligible for this procedure...So my hopes are to hold off until we can see what happens more with this procedure....makes more sense to me.

Details about the study...
http://www.clinicaltrials.gov/ct/show/NCT00378664?order1

We took her to Chicago a couple years ago for the bladder stimulation program....and they told us that the way she was then she didn't need that surgery...and bladder wise things really haven't changed but I know they will still push the surgery....the Dr. hinted that way in November.

That's all on my mind today...lol....back to housework, laundry and dishes and kids

Friday, January 26, 2007

echo results

Connors test went well..everything is perfect!!!! Yay! I can breathe!!!!
He is such an angel!! babbling in his crib right now telling stories......

When babies look beyond you and giggle, maybe they're seeing angels. ~Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994

I think he was talking to someone last night..he sure was laughing looking beyond me...??


When angels visit us, we do not hear the rustle of wings, nor feel the feathery touch of the breast of a dove; but we know their presence by the love they create in our hearts.

echo results

Connors test went well..everything is perfect!!!! Yay! I can breathe!!!!
He is such an angel!! babbling in his crib right now telling stories......

When angels visit us, we do not hear the rustle of wings, nor feel the feathery touch of the breast of a dove; but we know their presence by the love they create in our hearts.


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When babies look beyond you and giggle, maybe they're seeing angels. ~Quoted in The Angels' Little Instruction Book by Eileen Elias Freeman, 1994

I think he was talking to someone last night..he sure was laughing looking beyond me...??

Thursday, January 25, 2007

Connor's echo test friday

Connor has his echocardiogram tomorrow at 10:30..for those who pray please put my lil sweetie in your prayers... "think healthy and well" Thanks...means the world to me!

The value of friendship

My friend Kim...sent me this this morning...
"Sheena
Your blog was absolutely wonderful. I cried all the way through Over the Rainbow...the front of my bathrobe is wet and my coffee is cold. I was just glued to the photos of your two Earth Angels. You are truly blessed by the Creator.
I wanted to put this comment on your site but I am totally out to lunch when it comes to computers...duh.
Our friendship has been long and strong since our first meeting at Sault College in September 1979. Several years may pass without seeing each other but you are always in my thoughts and prayers. When we do get together and look into each others face it is like only a day has passed. True friendship is hard to find and I know that ours is one that will live on forever.
If there is someway you would like to put my comments on your blog please feel free.
Hugs and Love. Kim"

Then after her email..I had this email from the site sparkpeople.com
We all have a handful of acquaintances--those people with whom we work or see at the store and casually say hello to and move on. But a friend is someone you confide in, bring over for an afternoon cup of coffee, invite to your wedding, or cry with when a loved one passes away. You just feel a sense of safety with a friend. Don't wait until a rainy day to express how much a good friend means to you. Often we are unaware of how much we mean to others until they speak up, and likewise we never know how much another person might truly need to hear such affirmations. An approving, cheerful word of encouragement can thrill a heart. Be sure to always say kind words before you part, show sympathy during hard times and affection during wonderful ones. Life would not be the same without positive friendships. Express your gratitude to someone today who has made a difference in your world!

If you have one true friend you have more than your share. - Thomas Fuller, English clergyman & historian
I consider myself very rich....because I have many true friends.

Wednesday, January 24, 2007

Gifts

This is a fabulous book...A new friend online sent it to me...I read to page 194 the first night that I got it. It was a gift that I needed! It helped me realize I'm not the first nor the last to have a child with trisomy 21. Surprizingly so many are born to mothers under age 35....over 80 %.
Check out this link and listen to the song..I think it speaks for all children...life is a miracle!!
http://giftsds.segullah.org/photo_montage.htm

A friend once told me ...her mother said "all children should be welcomed into the world"!
Wise mama!
If you have children..go hug them ...no matter how old they are ....let your eyes light up when they enter the room...let them know how much you love them. All of my children mean the world to me....they are my world!!

Tuesday, January 23, 2007

View this video montage created at One True Media
Click on the picture to see a montage
Tessa picked the songs...by her fav
Connor and Tessa

I like to travel...what can I say

No matter what I face I'll adapt to the situation because adventure is my reality. I love to travel ...I like camping too..I like to pack what I need though instead of roughing it. That's where family, friends and good support lists come in handy.

Whether I choose a the shortest route or the off beaten path...I know life will be good...for anyone that has never read this poem..it is one of the best poems ever written, in my opinion....

WELCOME TO HOLLAND

by
Emily Perl Kingsley.

c1987 by Emily Perl Kingsley. All rights reserved

I am often asked to describe the experience of raising a child with a disability - to try to help people who have not shared that unique experience to understand it, to imagine how it would feel. It's like this......

When you're going to have a baby, it's like planning a fabulous vacation trip - to Italy. You buy a bunch of guide books and make your wonderful plans. The Coliseum. The Michelangelo David. The gondolas in Venice. You may learn some handy phrases in Italian. It's all very exciting.

After months of eager anticipation, the day finally arrives. You pack your bags and off you go. Several hours later, the plane lands. The stewardess comes in and says, "Welcome to Holland."

"Holland?!?" you say. "What do you mean Holland?? I signed up for Italy! I'm supposed to be in Italy. All my life I've dreamed of going to Italy."

But there's been a change in the flight plan. They've landed in Holland and there you must stay.

The important thing is that they haven't taken you to a horrible, disgusting, filthy place, full of pestilence, famine and disease. It's just a different place.

So you must go out and buy new guide books. And you must learn a whole new language. And you will meet a whole new group of people you would never have met.

It's just a different place. It's slower-paced than Italy, less flashy than Italy. But after you've been there for a while and you catch your breath, you look around.... and you begin to notice that Holland has windmills....and Holland has tulips. Holland even has Rembrandts.

But everyone you know is busy coming and going from Italy... and they're all bragging about what a wonderful time they had there. And for the rest of your life, you will say "Yes, that's where I was supposed to go. That's what I had planned."

And the pain of that will never, ever, ever, ever go away... because the loss of that dream is a very very significant loss.

But... if you spend your life mourning the fact that you didn't get to Italy, you may never be free to enjoy the very special, the very lovely things ... about Holland.

http://www.our-kids.org/Archives/Holland.html



squeaky wheel gets the grease:)

Connor's health center called today. He has an echo on Friday...yay! finally someone listening..guess the Doctors from yesterday were able to convince him to get moving with the test. I feel better about that. Now back to my 101 other things to do ...you know that never ending list.

Monday, January 22, 2007

a long day

I had a long day today....I'm really starting to lose sleep over Connor being age 5 1/2 months with no echo or other health tests other than hearing..so I used today with Connor having a nasty viral cold to get him checked by anyone...a ped in particular.

Of course his ped Dr. that is a cardio specialist ped..was away again.. he's cancelled Connor's appts since Nov..we are now up to march for a first appt with him ...so i went to emerg..we were there from 11 am until 6:30 tonight...he has a virus like i knew..both ears are blocked with wax..i knew one was.

He got a chest xray..that was fine..puts me more at ease...no pneumonia...and the Dr who saw him said for me not to listen to the Dr that told me to stay off the internet..lol..like i was going to listen any way....

The Dr we saw in emergency set us up with a ped.The ped. came in and checked Connor all over and took his history.And he said that we can at least call him for the next 3 days if we need him and he is going to talk to Connor's Dr about speeding up the echo..he said he may not be able to convince him because other than Connor's hands turning blue the past says there aren't any signs showing the need????
Heart sounded good...no murmur:)

The first Dr. today was very sad for Connor and i that are needs are not being met..it was nice to have a little understanding in our frustration.

Connor's o 2 levels were 91, 91 and 92 today.

The Dr. said next time that i notice that his hands are blue to check his inside of his mouth ..to see if tongue or gums are blue.Indicate possible heart problem.

that's all I can remember about today...chips and coffee were my great lunch while cuddling Connor

Sheena

Saturday, January 20, 2007

Blogspot 101

here's my first posting...I created this site to put updates, links and info about my 2 littlest earth angels: Connor and Tessa.

Tessa was born with a birth defect called spina bifida and Connor was born with condition called T21....aka trisomy 21. Tessa is 9 years old and Connor is 5 1/2 months.

I have 2 other children-ages 20 and 19...And 2 step-daughters ages 21 and 18...all are great kids ...I would need another site to tell you about them..so this sites main focus will be blurbs and blogs on the 2 youngest.